Feels like letting go

I can still see your face in my head
I can still hear every words you ever said
But it's all fading into a memory now
I've lost track of time
And you've fallen behind
As I watch the curtain of our life fall down

I'm not the one who said goodbye
So why am I still let you make me cry
Didn't you know I still needed you in my life?

To hear a song and think of you
To run my hands over all your old clothes
Is this what it feels like letting go?
To see my life in black and white
And cursing every time the pieces no longer fit right
Loving you and hating you
I can't decide between the two
And wishing you were here to see the woman I've turned out to be
If I still see you every time I look in the mirror
How will I know what it feels like letting go?

I tell my feelings to no one
'Cause I don't want to show them that I still feel so alone
They all think I'm so strong
But if only they knew
That every night, I'm still haunted by visions of you
Sometimes it's so hard to keep my calm

I'm not the one who said goodbye
So why am I still let you make me cry
Didn't you know I still needed you in my life?

To hear a song and think of you
To run my hands over all your old clothes
Is this what it feels like letting go?
To see my life in black and white
And cursing every time the pieces no longer fit right
Loving you and hating you
I can't decide between the two
And wishing you were here to see the woman I've turned out to be
If I still see you every time I look in the mirror
How will I know what it feels like letting go?

If this is what it feels like letting go
Please don't close that curtain on me now
Not when I need you the most
Not when you're not here to pick me up off the ground

To hear a song and think of you
To run my hands over all your old clothes
Is this what it feels like letting go?
To see my life in black and white
And cursing every time the pieces no longer fit right
Loving you and hating you
I can't decide between the two
And wishing you were here to see the woman I've turned out to be
If I still see you every time I look in the mirror
How will I know what it feels like letting go?

To hear a song and think of you
To run my hands over all your old clothes
Is this what it feels like letting go?
To see my life in black and white
And cursing every time the pieces no longer fit right
Loving you and hating you
I can't decide between the two
And wishing you were here to see the woman I've turned out to be
If I still see you every time I look in the mirror
How will I know what it feels like letting go?

I saw a family and I couldn't help but wonder
Could that still be us?
Who would we be today?
Would I still smile and would I be happy
And would you be proud of me?
There's so many things I never got to say...