I'm actually going to type something that happened today.
Well, I catch a bus home.
Sure, I am the first one off the bus.
But I demand justice for all Bus Riders.
So, there's this one Kid.
His name is Zac, he calls me Mouseboy Girl.
Which really, drives me up the wall.
Anyway, as well as Zac, there is also Liam & Llewellen.
They have the high pictchiest voices.. EVER!
And they are all younger.
It's like the unspoken rule.
That the Older kids sit up the back.
And the youngest at the frount.
So, you gradually work your way to the back.
Recently, they have been moving further and further back.
Giving all of us older kids a hard time, by being annoying.
So I went and told my Bus Driver Danny,
He's generally a nice bloke..
But he's like, tell them to move.
So I did.
They didnt Budge.
So I went back to Danny.
And he's like but your only on for one stop.
But that didn't matter to me.
Sure, by that time most people thought I was a winer.
But that was okay.
I was standing up for what I believe in.
By the time I got back to my seat, next to Josh Simpson (Mouseboy)
And then the whole bus was on about how me and mousey were an item?
No, that is not true.
Josh is one of my best friends.
Sure, I do sit next to him every day on the bus.
But there is nothing lovey-dovey about that.
Is there?
I think not.
Even Danny said, over the loudspeaker.
"No Romancing on my Bus, cough cough Jade & Josh!"
That made me really angry.
I didn't even say thankyou as I got of the bus.
And that's pretty harsh.
Yeah that's about it.
I will persue the Youngings staying at the frount.
It will be happening.
I'll keep you updated.
Friday, July 31, 2009
Painfully Obvious Dreams
The jury has reached its verdict: I suffer from a hopeless (probably cureless) case of being brutally honest even in my dreams. There are no mixed metaphors, no objects meant to represent something else, no images of me standing at the edge of a cliff or me falling endlessly though the sky.
Nope. I surely don't need Freud to help me interpret the dream I had a few months ago. Picture this: I'm in the hallowed halls of a high school (obvious interpretation clue #1). It's practically deserted, except for a guy at the end of a long hall. I walk a little closer to get a better look at his face. Sure enough, it's Crush Boy (obvious interpretation clue #2). And for what seems like an eternity, I'm screaming to him, "Hello. I'm right here. Why won't you acknowledge me? Why won't you acknowledge anything I've said in the last month?" (obvious interpretation clue #3).
Oh, how transparent have I become? As I look even closer at him, I can see he's furiously trying to figure out the combination to unlock a locker (obvious interpretation clue #4). Hmmm, what could that mean, I wonder? Oh, I don't know, that he's so desperately trying to unlock his emotions because, oh, maybe, just maybe, he doesn't have any???
And then, just like that, I woke up. I layed in bed for awhile thinking about that dream. Am I mad at him for basically failing to acknowledge my heart when I so vulnerably placed it at his feet? Or am I really mad at myself for just laying it all out there? You know what? I honestly don't think people should have to apologize for their feelings, however they come out, even it's not at the most opportune time. Sometimes, things just need to be said. Some things just get so bottled up that you have no choice but to set them free. But it doesn't help that the one person you think is going to at least let you down easy instead makes you feel bad for even saying anything in the first place.
Nope. I surely don't need Freud to help me interpret the dream I had a few months ago. Picture this: I'm in the hallowed halls of a high school (obvious interpretation clue #1). It's practically deserted, except for a guy at the end of a long hall. I walk a little closer to get a better look at his face. Sure enough, it's Crush Boy (obvious interpretation clue #2). And for what seems like an eternity, I'm screaming to him, "Hello. I'm right here. Why won't you acknowledge me? Why won't you acknowledge anything I've said in the last month?" (obvious interpretation clue #3).
Oh, how transparent have I become? As I look even closer at him, I can see he's furiously trying to figure out the combination to unlock a locker (obvious interpretation clue #4). Hmmm, what could that mean, I wonder? Oh, I don't know, that he's so desperately trying to unlock his emotions because, oh, maybe, just maybe, he doesn't have any???
And then, just like that, I woke up. I layed in bed for awhile thinking about that dream. Am I mad at him for basically failing to acknowledge my heart when I so vulnerably placed it at his feet? Or am I really mad at myself for just laying it all out there? You know what? I honestly don't think people should have to apologize for their feelings, however they come out, even it's not at the most opportune time. Sometimes, things just need to be said. Some things just get so bottled up that you have no choice but to set them free. But it doesn't help that the one person you think is going to at least let you down easy instead makes you feel bad for even saying anything in the first place.
Dear Future Husband.
It's come to my attention that, sometimes, I can be an intimidating force -- like a force field of wind or hurricane not to be reckoned with. I do have a soft, gooey center, I promise, but I do admit that my concrete-like exterior has served as a buffer - a protective shield, if you will.
Was I really reserved and shy when we met? Did you fall in love with me right away, and was I practically oblivious to it? I'm sorry if I was. For so long, I figured that it would protect me from getting hurt - if I couldn't let anyone in, I wouldn't get hurt, right? WRONG. I got hurt, but not from other people who stomped on my heart and pureed it in the blender. No, no. My wounds, it turned, ended up being self-inflicted. I had been hurting myself for far too long, probably longer than I'd ever have let any stupid guy hurt me. And yes, of course, I'm sure my k had something to do with my sheepishness of late, and honestly, I think I'm always going to be struggling in that department. It's not the easiest thing to approach a guy when you can't walk properly and make it even remotely un-awkward. I'm sure I'm a lot to take in -- and that's even BEFORE I open my mouth.
So slowly, but surely, I suppose I'm (at least) trying - trying to be open, trying to reach out, trying to stomp the shell I've been in instead of continuing to stomp of my own heart, which is, as you know, a beautiful, precious heart.
In the spirit of that, I feel it only fair to give you the home-court advantage (and no, I don't mean it in a kinky way, either; do we need to go over my prude rules again?). Here are some ways to begin to work your way into my heart....Here's the 411on how to approach me. You just might discover I'm not that intimidating after all; heck, I don't even bite...usually.
Eye-Contact Communication
This is numbero uno for me. as I said yesterday, the eyes are the windows to a person's soul, and there's nothing I like more than "eyeing" a guy from across the room. It's that sense of innocent, yet seduction flirtation that I like. NOTE: Guys, if you look me directly in the eyes when you speak to me (which you should anyway) and my reply is a bunch of mumbling nonsensical words and awkward hand gestures, I'm probably in love with you...or at least pretty close to it.
Smile
I can be shy at first, so a strong and confident smile is the key to putting me swiftly at ease. If I smile at you, don't get scared and think it's some sort of twitch from my disability. It means I really, really like you.
Break The Ice With Laughter
They say laughter is the best medicine for a very good reason, and it's especially true in the love game, I've found. I love a guy who can make me laugh, one of those spontaneous, genuine laughs are the best. For example, Young Guns last week just made my day when he showed me how he'd learned to juggle with Play-Doh. It's simple, yes, but it left me smiling the whole day. He was a mighty fine juggler too, I might add.
Just Talk To Me
Did you see this one coming? It seems so easy, doesn't it? Just come up to me and say "Hi..." Then I'll say "Hi..." and before you know it, we're picking out names for our children. Oh, wait, maybe that topic will scare you off again.....
Yes, this is what I do when I'm bored
Was I really reserved and shy when we met? Did you fall in love with me right away, and was I practically oblivious to it? I'm sorry if I was. For so long, I figured that it would protect me from getting hurt - if I couldn't let anyone in, I wouldn't get hurt, right? WRONG. I got hurt, but not from other people who stomped on my heart and pureed it in the blender. No, no. My wounds, it turned, ended up being self-inflicted. I had been hurting myself for far too long, probably longer than I'd ever have let any stupid guy hurt me. And yes, of course, I'm sure my k had something to do with my sheepishness of late, and honestly, I think I'm always going to be struggling in that department. It's not the easiest thing to approach a guy when you can't walk properly and make it even remotely un-awkward. I'm sure I'm a lot to take in -- and that's even BEFORE I open my mouth.
So slowly, but surely, I suppose I'm (at least) trying - trying to be open, trying to reach out, trying to stomp the shell I've been in instead of continuing to stomp of my own heart, which is, as you know, a beautiful, precious heart.
In the spirit of that, I feel it only fair to give you the home-court advantage (and no, I don't mean it in a kinky way, either; do we need to go over my prude rules again?). Here are some ways to begin to work your way into my heart....Here's the 411on how to approach me. You just might discover I'm not that intimidating after all; heck, I don't even bite...usually.
Eye-Contact Communication
This is numbero uno for me. as I said yesterday, the eyes are the windows to a person's soul, and there's nothing I like more than "eyeing" a guy from across the room. It's that sense of innocent, yet seduction flirtation that I like. NOTE: Guys, if you look me directly in the eyes when you speak to me (which you should anyway) and my reply is a bunch of mumbling nonsensical words and awkward hand gestures, I'm probably in love with you...or at least pretty close to it.
Smile
I can be shy at first, so a strong and confident smile is the key to putting me swiftly at ease. If I smile at you, don't get scared and think it's some sort of twitch from my disability. It means I really, really like you.
Break The Ice With Laughter
They say laughter is the best medicine for a very good reason, and it's especially true in the love game, I've found. I love a guy who can make me laugh, one of those spontaneous, genuine laughs are the best. For example, Young Guns last week just made my day when he showed me how he'd learned to juggle with Play-Doh. It's simple, yes, but it left me smiling the whole day. He was a mighty fine juggler too, I might add.
Just Talk To Me
Did you see this one coming? It seems so easy, doesn't it? Just come up to me and say "Hi..." Then I'll say "Hi..." and before you know it, we're picking out names for our children. Oh, wait, maybe that topic will scare you off again.....
Yes, this is what I do when I'm bored
me
my life is completely average. there's mostly good things in it, but theres still those bad ones that bring me down. i'm not the kind of person that likes to let everyone know when im upest, usually i just cover up my feelings with a smile. one day i hope to have the perfect life, with no difficulties, but i know its not going to happen but everyone has dreams. ive been told a few times that im a pushover, so i try my hardest not to let people tell me what to do. i care a lot about what people think of me, i dont know why but i cant help it. my basketball girls are the only group of girls i have come across that havent stabbed me in the back, and theyre completely amazing for it. i dont even bother wasting my time on stupid people that think that everything is about them. i can admit that ive made my faire share of mistakes but everyone has and thats what makes the world go round. my life is a crazy rollercoaster and there is no way im getting off any time soon.
And again
Those guys do stupid things like that all the time and get away with calling it an hour of power.
Getting wives to call up and admit that they are having affairs but they dont want their husbands to hear.
Lie detectors... honestly. Its disgusting and it made me so mad that they are acting all high and mighty about the issue.
Admit that you did something wrong. Say that it was stupid of us and we have a lesson to learn from this and move on.
They are loving the ratings and attention at the moment and that makes me sick.
This is so like that Gordan issue with Tracy Grimshaw. She was all happy to flirt with him and try and be his friend. So he makes some stupid comments about someone who he considered maybe an acquaintance, they were in jest, then for ratings so goes and makes it into the biggest issue. We let these media people get away with so much, all in the name of entertainment.
I remember when Kyle and Jackie O used to be fun and ask great questions. now their celebrity interview are pathetic. 'ok, so truth or rumor..' THEY DO THAT EVERY SHOW! Do your job, research your guests dont read magazines!
Kyle telling Jackie that she had packed on the weight a little and if she lost some weight he would donate money to a charity if not to a slaughter house. Its just exaggerated, over the top, ridiculous radio and im not surprised at all that they have stooped to that level for ratings.
Getting wives to call up and admit that they are having affairs but they dont want their husbands to hear.
Lie detectors... honestly. Its disgusting and it made me so mad that they are acting all high and mighty about the issue.
Admit that you did something wrong. Say that it was stupid of us and we have a lesson to learn from this and move on.
They are loving the ratings and attention at the moment and that makes me sick.
This is so like that Gordan issue with Tracy Grimshaw. She was all happy to flirt with him and try and be his friend. So he makes some stupid comments about someone who he considered maybe an acquaintance, they were in jest, then for ratings so goes and makes it into the biggest issue. We let these media people get away with so much, all in the name of entertainment.
I remember when Kyle and Jackie O used to be fun and ask great questions. now their celebrity interview are pathetic. 'ok, so truth or rumor..' THEY DO THAT EVERY SHOW! Do your job, research your guests dont read magazines!
Kyle telling Jackie that she had packed on the weight a little and if she lost some weight he would donate money to a charity if not to a slaughter house. Its just exaggerated, over the top, ridiculous radio and im not surprised at all that they have stooped to that level for ratings.
How could you
I am pretty shocked by how many people are defending Kyle and Jackie O in this case.
The mum seems like an idiot, she really does. But that doesn't shift blame away from Kyle.
The girl was forced on the radio, she said at the beginning of the interview she didn't want to be there and that it was unfair. (being a minor her consent form is signed by her mum)
The girl was then strapped to a lie-detector and asked questions by her mum about her sex life. No matter what the girl says next this is an incredibly cruel thing to do to a 14 year old. After this interview everyone she knows will know if she has had sex and how often. There is nothing for her to gain in this interview.
Asking someone questions like this on a lie detector is dangerous. The lie detector means the guest can't censor themselves, so anything the guest has done or has had done to them will be forced out. It is incredibly irresponsible to not, at least, pre-record the segment to protect the family and the listeners.
Also, in case something like this happens radio goes out on a 7 second delay so you can 'dump' inappropriate things people have said. I don't understand why the sentence 'I was raped when I was 12' wasn't 'dumped' and the segment aborted.
Now Kyle and Jackie O are furious at the media for how this has been 'portrayed.' I am not sure it could of been portrayed any other way. I made my mind up by listening to their unedited audio. They are also upset that this has become such a major news story. Why are they suddenly concerned about attention on the 14 year old girls private life? Yesterday they were happy to probe into live on air.
Kyle has been doing this for a long time. He is not an amateur. This segment, even it had gone to plan, is unforgivable.
Some radio DJ's get ratings by exploiting people with genuine issues who clearly aren't that intelligent. Some get them by being funny and interesting.
I just wish more people listened to the latter.
Written by Josh Thomas.
The mum seems like an idiot, she really does. But that doesn't shift blame away from Kyle.
The girl was forced on the radio, she said at the beginning of the interview she didn't want to be there and that it was unfair. (being a minor her consent form is signed by her mum)
The girl was then strapped to a lie-detector and asked questions by her mum about her sex life. No matter what the girl says next this is an incredibly cruel thing to do to a 14 year old. After this interview everyone she knows will know if she has had sex and how often. There is nothing for her to gain in this interview.
Asking someone questions like this on a lie detector is dangerous. The lie detector means the guest can't censor themselves, so anything the guest has done or has had done to them will be forced out. It is incredibly irresponsible to not, at least, pre-record the segment to protect the family and the listeners.
Also, in case something like this happens radio goes out on a 7 second delay so you can 'dump' inappropriate things people have said. I don't understand why the sentence 'I was raped when I was 12' wasn't 'dumped' and the segment aborted.
Now Kyle and Jackie O are furious at the media for how this has been 'portrayed.' I am not sure it could of been portrayed any other way. I made my mind up by listening to their unedited audio. They are also upset that this has become such a major news story. Why are they suddenly concerned about attention on the 14 year old girls private life? Yesterday they were happy to probe into live on air.
Kyle has been doing this for a long time. He is not an amateur. This segment, even it had gone to plan, is unforgivable.
Some radio DJ's get ratings by exploiting people with genuine issues who clearly aren't that intelligent. Some get them by being funny and interesting.
I just wish more people listened to the latter.
Written by Josh Thomas.
Fairytales
I'd really like to go to this school.
It's the most amazing school.
I'd wake up and be in a Fairtytale.
All the buildings are like castles.
It is amazing.
Someday soon.
It's the most amazing school.
I'd wake up and be in a Fairtytale.
All the buildings are like castles.
It is amazing.
Someday soon.
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
After a While.
After a while you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul.
And you learn that love doesn't mean leaning and company doesn't mean security.
And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts and present's arn't promises.
And you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes open, with the grace of an adult not the greif of a child.
And you learn to build all your roads on today because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans.
Afer a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much.
So plant your own garden and decorate your own soul, instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.
And you learn that you can really endure...
That you are really strong,
And you really do have worth.
And you learn that love doesn't mean leaning and company doesn't mean security.
And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts and present's arn't promises.
And you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes open, with the grace of an adult not the greif of a child.
And you learn to build all your roads on today because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans.
Afer a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much.
So plant your own garden and decorate your own soul, instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.
And you learn that you can really endure...
That you are really strong,
And you really do have worth.
until its gone
j m s
esther wells, you will always be my best friend.
Music
friends are always my first priority.
my life is complicated, i'm not easy to understand.
but don't let that stop you getting to know me; treat me well i'll treat you well back.
massive believer in karma (YN)
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anything can change even when you don't expect it, so enjoy them while you can.
you never realise how much you'll miss somthing,
untill its gone
esther wells, you will always be my best friend.
Music
friends are always my first priority.
my life is complicated, i'm not easy to understand.
but don't let that stop you getting to know me; treat me well i'll treat you well back.
massive believer in karma (YN)
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anything can change even when you don't expect it, so enjoy them while you can.
you never realise how much you'll miss somthing,
untill its gone
:D
Oh great news.
I can't tell you but oh well.
YES!
I'm so excited. :)
Hopefully will be aloud to tell you another day!
xx
I can't tell you but oh well.
YES!
I'm so excited. :)
Hopefully will be aloud to tell you another day!
xx
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
Monday, July 27, 2009
Smile.
One smile can change someone’s life.
How many lives will you change?
Tommorrow smile at every person you see.
Feel the warmth in your chest as you watch their faces light up, notice how they go on to smile at the next person they see, and the next and the next.
Notice how you naturally feel happier.
Just one smile can change the world!
You didn’t know that they were having a bad day or feeling down, yet your smile filled their world with happiness in that moment, and showed them that someone cares.
Notice how contagious smiles are.
You didn’t know that they were having a bad day or feeling down, yet your smile filled their world with happiness in that moment, and showed them that someone cares.
Notice how contagious smiles are.
As each person who received the gift of a smile goes on to share it with another, watch their faces light up.
Watch your one smile spread far and wide.
Notice how you feel throughout the day; happier, more loving towards your family and less irritable.
Notice how you feel throughout the day; happier, more loving towards your family and less irritable.
Sharing one smile really can change your reality too.
Let’s all join hands and spread a smile across the globe, so the world smiles for one day.
Let’s all join hands and spread a smile across the globe, so the world smiles for one day.
No thought, no expectations, and no worries; a smile is free to share.
It doesn’t matter if they don’t smile back, they felt it inside.
Smile at everyone you see, notice how it makes you feel and react throughout the rest of the day.
Smile at everyone you see, notice how it makes you feel and react throughout the rest of the day.
Notice the recipients faces light up; especially as they go on to share your smile with another person.
Feel your one smile grow and know that you gave the gift of love to the world.
That was my public speaking speach above.
Oh, yeah I'm cool.
Speaking about smiles.
Hahah :)
Hahah :)
I've got her addicted.
Shanna.
That is.
Now she's just as bad as me.
I think Blogging.
It's quite addictive.
I looooove it.
Even if no one at all reads it.
I think I have about..
3 steady readers.
Haha.
I'm so proud.
& thank you to you.
That is.
Now she's just as bad as me.
I think Blogging.
It's quite addictive.
I looooove it.
Even if no one at all reads it.
I think I have about..
3 steady readers.
Haha.
I'm so proud.
& thank you to you.
I relise now.
I realised how selfish i've been..
Pretty much all my life
I spend so much time thinking about how much it affects me and upsets/annoys me to see friends throw away things like self-respect, dignity, and pretty much our friendship
All the while forgetting how much it affects other people too and constantly feeling sorry for myself like a self-centered piece of poo
Instead of realising what's actually happening
the bigger picture.
feels like shit to realise that i'm actually the ignorant one
but hey
now that i know
i can change
ye
Saturday, July 25, 2009
Blown Away.
Anyway,
I just figured out what a talent one of my friends has.
I always knew he was into this kind of thing.
But I never understood, how it worked.
Well, it was just all explained to me.
And his talent Blows Me Away!
No, honestly.
I've never seen anything like it.
He must have the most amazing patience to do such a thing.
I'm astonished.
He has a blog aswell.
You should have a look-see.
And I'm pretty sure, you will be amazed as I am!
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Suuuuuup, I'm Jade
I'm the type of person who laughs at a joke that nobody else finds funny.
Forget what you think i am, im not, im actually nice.
I have no idea what I want anymore and I hate it but I'm getting there.
I really dislike it when people make my buisness there's.
I make so many mistakes it's really not good, but I'm learning because nobodys perfect.
One person knows me better than myself, Esther, she keeps me going ♥
I actually dont have the worst memory ever, so rely on me to remember anything, at anytime.
I believe in karma.
& I'm a complete sucker for smiles, if you make me smile I will love you.
I love making new friends so say hi when you get the chance :)
I talk really fast, I hate repeating myself so just listen because it's your loss if you miss what I say.
I don't judge people on what they look like it's stupid.
I love coola cordial & the magazine Frankie.
I have many fears, but mainly my future.
But I'm also excited to see what happens.
& I miss how everything used to be, life was easy.
I try to hide my feelings and what I'm thinking, but it never works.
& You can tell when somethings up.
Connor Beu, your amazing, my bestfriend forever & always.
Sophie, Shanna, Hannah, Luis, Kathy Lee, Maddie, Beth, Lewis, BC Kids - my everything.
"I treat every breath as my first and every day as my last." -Hiltop Hoods
“People say that you're going the wrong way when it's simply a way of your own.”-Angelina Jolie
I'm the type of person who laughs at a joke that nobody else finds funny.
Forget what you think i am, im not, im actually nice.
I have no idea what I want anymore and I hate it but I'm getting there.
I really dislike it when people make my buisness there's.
I make so many mistakes it's really not good, but I'm learning because nobodys perfect.
One person knows me better than myself, Esther, she keeps me going ♥
I actually dont have the worst memory ever, so rely on me to remember anything, at anytime.
I believe in karma.
& I'm a complete sucker for smiles, if you make me smile I will love you.
I love making new friends so say hi when you get the chance :)
I talk really fast, I hate repeating myself so just listen because it's your loss if you miss what I say.
I don't judge people on what they look like it's stupid.
I love coola cordial & the magazine Frankie.
I have many fears, but mainly my future.
But I'm also excited to see what happens.
& I miss how everything used to be, life was easy.
I try to hide my feelings and what I'm thinking, but it never works.
& You can tell when somethings up.
Connor Beu, your amazing, my bestfriend forever & always.
Sophie, Shanna, Hannah, Luis, Kathy Lee, Maddie, Beth, Lewis, BC Kids - my everything.
"I treat every breath as my first and every day as my last." -Hiltop Hoods
“People say that you're going the wrong way when it's simply a way of your own.”-Angelina Jolie
it
it hit it smash it bang it break it love it do it make it hate it fake it run it walk it sleep it shop it tear it pull it grab it throw it use it lose it win it wear it embrace it wreck it open it close it ask it sue it kill it deny it jump it leave it catch it take it borrow it move it shake it make it taste it chew it climb it sit it stand it answer it boost it cop it intise it enjoy it place it race it chase it enlight it delight it disuss it eat it feed it hop it chop it dance it plot it sex it bloody well fcuk it. -then end.
Friday, July 24, 2009
Blah Blah Blah
My name is Jade.
There's really not much to me, and I annoy most people.
I'm not who most expect me to be, and honestly, I don't care anymore.
I've disapointed people that mean alot to me, and I have regrets that I will learn from.
Lately, I've been useless and hopeless, and have no reason for anything anymore.
Things change, I'm only human.
I'm only me.
There's really not much to me, and I annoy most people.
I'm not who most expect me to be, and honestly, I don't care anymore.
I've disapointed people that mean alot to me, and I have regrets that I will learn from.
Lately, I've been useless and hopeless, and have no reason for anything anymore.
Things change, I'm only human.
I'm only me.
These mean alot..
Oh have some heart and hold it to your chest,
We weren't in love, we were too young.
We throw our words around as if they were not gold,
well they are.
Oh maybe someday I will be something more,
Real with arms and legs so I can walk away and stay away forever and some more
some more.
I'll stick around to watch this town fall down to it's knees,
You can pray the day that you hope is coming round real soon.
I will run and stay away in a place that I don't know well of,
You can chose a different song that you will soon love.
Well here are the reasons that hurt me the most.
Call off the search I'm coming home,
People lie once, but not on the third,
Not without reason, not for a girl.
The names will vary, the names they may change,
But the game, the game it stays the same, Oh love, we want the ones that we will grow to hate, to hate.
It's just so
Oh no, oh no. oh woah, oh no...
Oh maybe someday I'll deserve something more,
A home in which I will turn to grow.
I plant the seeds so that we can become something more,
something more
I'll stick around to watch this town fall down to it's knees,
You can pray the day that you hope is coming round real soon.
I will run and stay away in a place that I don't know well of,
You can chose a different song that you will soon love.
Oh here are the reasons that hurt me the most,
Call off the search she's coming home.
People lie once, but not on the third,
Not without reason, not for a girl.
We weren't in love, we were too young.
We throw our words around as if they were not gold,
well they are.
Oh maybe someday I will be something more,
Real with arms and legs so I can walk away and stay away forever and some more
some more.
I'll stick around to watch this town fall down to it's knees,
You can pray the day that you hope is coming round real soon.
I will run and stay away in a place that I don't know well of,
You can chose a different song that you will soon love.
Well here are the reasons that hurt me the most.
Call off the search I'm coming home,
People lie once, but not on the third,
Not without reason, not for a girl.
The names will vary, the names they may change,
But the game, the game it stays the same, Oh love, we want the ones that we will grow to hate, to hate.
It's just so
Oh no, oh no. oh woah, oh no...
Oh maybe someday I'll deserve something more,
A home in which I will turn to grow.
I plant the seeds so that we can become something more,
something more
I'll stick around to watch this town fall down to it's knees,
You can pray the day that you hope is coming round real soon.
I will run and stay away in a place that I don't know well of,
You can chose a different song that you will soon love.
Oh here are the reasons that hurt me the most,
Call off the search she's coming home.
People lie once, but not on the third,
Not without reason, not for a girl.
Thursday, July 23, 2009
Let's be honest
I'm nearly always in a low mood and have such a negative attitude towards life.
I admit I let things get to me & take a lot to heart, but I can't help it.
I dont know where I'm going in the future but I want to be sucsessful and have fun along the way.
I dont seek attention cause really it's pathetic and pointless.
I'm only a teenager and I've already gone through so much and I'm scared of what I still have to learn.
I'm worried that I'm guna wake up one day when I'm 25 and realise that I just threw my life away to have fun.
I believe that one day ill be happy and smiling.
It's just not my time yet.
I admit I let things get to me & take a lot to heart, but I can't help it.
I dont know where I'm going in the future but I want to be sucsessful and have fun along the way.
I dont seek attention cause really it's pathetic and pointless.
I'm only a teenager and I've already gone through so much and I'm scared of what I still have to learn.
I'm worried that I'm guna wake up one day when I'm 25 and realise that I just threw my life away to have fun.
I believe that one day ill be happy and smiling.
It's just not my time yet.
Saturday, July 18, 2009
Lookin' Good
Its sad how people feel the need to look good just so people will accept them.
In the world we live in these days its all about image and if you cant flaunt it you dont have it. Me, personaly, I couldnt really care less if my friends have parents that are rich enough to buy them the latest clothes from china or somewhere like that.
People need to grow up.
The girls that walk around looking down upon everyone are so simple.
There not as beautiful as they think they are and the thing that makes them look good to others is confidence.
This is the reason i live by the saying 'nobody can make you feel inferior without your consent.' Because I finally learnt not to judge myself through other peoples eyes.
Just remeber, Live the life you want to live.
Be the person you want to remember.
Make Decisions, Make mistakes.
If you fall, at least you tried.
In the world we live in these days its all about image and if you cant flaunt it you dont have it. Me, personaly, I couldnt really care less if my friends have parents that are rich enough to buy them the latest clothes from china or somewhere like that.
People need to grow up.
The girls that walk around looking down upon everyone are so simple.
There not as beautiful as they think they are and the thing that makes them look good to others is confidence.
This is the reason i live by the saying 'nobody can make you feel inferior without your consent.' Because I finally learnt not to judge myself through other peoples eyes.
Just remeber, Live the life you want to live.
Be the person you want to remember.
Make Decisions, Make mistakes.
If you fall, at least you tried.
Never go to Westfield, Doncaster
Hey.
Wasssssssap?
Ha, I'm such a gangsta.
Actually.
I'm in a gang.
It's a pre rad gang.
Well, it's going to be a gang.
The Stuart Baby Gang.
Since theres like 238234023 of them now.
No, serious, theres that many!
Okay, well there's like 8 Babies now, all within a 0-3 years old.
Gosh, my family is baby city.
Anyway.
We decided, that we'd all be in a gang, coz we're cool.
So yeah.
Stuart Family Baby Gang!
Lead by me. Haha :)
Today.
We went to Westfield in Doncaster to get my dad an iphone, from the apple store.
Anyway, It took like an hour to get there, down eastlink that is.
Traffic was really Bad.
Anyway, so we get there..
There is no carparks whatsoever!
Seriously.
NONE AT ALL!
We drove around for one whole hour
ONE HOUR!
And no carparks.
So we drove home.
:(
No iphone for dad.
But tomorrow.
We're hitting Chadstone :)
Bring on the Carparking spaces.
Haha.
Uhm, that was the extent of my day.
How exciting.
School on Monday.
Whoop Whoop.
I'm actually pre exciting.
New Auditorium. :)
Ka-Ching for Middle School Assemblies.
And there's a new girl in my class.
She's coming form Hong Kong.
Which will be really cool.
Can't wait.
Mmmhm
I want to see Harry Potter so bad.
Someone want to take me?
Since Mum won't drive me :(
Today Mum got angry, coz I talk too much.
It's not like I can help it.
I think it's coz I've big lungs.
Thanks to clarinet.
That's why Con talks alot too, Saxaphone lungs :)
Oh, I'm starting Saxaphone!
WHOOOOOO!
I'm exciting :)
Uhm, Dad's going away in 2 weeks, for 3 weeks.
And with the recent bombs and stuff in Indonesia, I'm kinda scared.
He's going to Sri Lanka.
I don't want him to go :(
Because then I'm stuck with Mum & Josh.
& That's not too pleasant.
Planning on going out for all of the weekend, every weekend, while he's gone.
I think that's a good idea.
He comes back the day before my Birthday, which is Con's bday.
Oooh.
It's my birthday soon!
Whooop Whoop.
I'm kinda pre excited.
Actually having a gathering type party this year.
The one I've been meaning to have since 07.
Haha.
Should be good.
Uhm, yeah.
That is all.
I think.
Oh yeah, in regards to previous post.
Me and Hannah.
Well Hannah and I, went up to cairns.
Had a great time.
Was good fun.
Amazing weather.
Had a spiffy time.
Must have her up again..
Okay.
Catch ya. x
Wasssssssap?
Ha, I'm such a gangsta.
Actually.
I'm in a gang.
It's a pre rad gang.
Well, it's going to be a gang.
The Stuart Baby Gang.
Since theres like 238234023 of them now.
No, serious, theres that many!
Okay, well there's like 8 Babies now, all within a 0-3 years old.
Gosh, my family is baby city.
Anyway.
We decided, that we'd all be in a gang, coz we're cool.
So yeah.
Stuart Family Baby Gang!
Lead by me. Haha :)
Today.
We went to Westfield in Doncaster to get my dad an iphone, from the apple store.
Anyway, It took like an hour to get there, down eastlink that is.
Traffic was really Bad.
Anyway, so we get there..
There is no carparks whatsoever!
Seriously.
NONE AT ALL!
We drove around for one whole hour
ONE HOUR!
And no carparks.
So we drove home.
:(
No iphone for dad.
But tomorrow.
We're hitting Chadstone :)
Bring on the Carparking spaces.
Haha.
Uhm, that was the extent of my day.
How exciting.
School on Monday.
Whoop Whoop.
I'm actually pre exciting.
New Auditorium. :)
Ka-Ching for Middle School Assemblies.
And there's a new girl in my class.
She's coming form Hong Kong.
Which will be really cool.
Can't wait.
Mmmhm
I want to see Harry Potter so bad.
Someone want to take me?
Since Mum won't drive me :(
Today Mum got angry, coz I talk too much.
It's not like I can help it.
I think it's coz I've big lungs.
Thanks to clarinet.
That's why Con talks alot too, Saxaphone lungs :)
Oh, I'm starting Saxaphone!
WHOOOOOO!
I'm exciting :)
Uhm, Dad's going away in 2 weeks, for 3 weeks.
And with the recent bombs and stuff in Indonesia, I'm kinda scared.
He's going to Sri Lanka.
I don't want him to go :(
Because then I'm stuck with Mum & Josh.
& That's not too pleasant.
Planning on going out for all of the weekend, every weekend, while he's gone.
I think that's a good idea.
He comes back the day before my Birthday, which is Con's bday.
Oooh.
It's my birthday soon!
Whooop Whoop.
I'm kinda pre excited.
Actually having a gathering type party this year.
The one I've been meaning to have since 07.
Haha.
Should be good.
Uhm, yeah.
That is all.
I think.
Oh yeah, in regards to previous post.
Me and Hannah.
Well Hannah and I, went up to cairns.
Had a great time.
Was good fun.
Amazing weather.
Had a spiffy time.
Must have her up again..
Okay.
Catch ya. x
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
It's not her pathetic poetics for once.
Heyy!
How are you all in Blogland?
Well, I guess I'm kidding myself.
You won't actually answer.
Even tho, I find myself talking to my computer sometimes...
But that's another story.
I feel pretty bad.
I havn't actually posted anything worth reading for so long..
So here it is.
It's going to take me ages to type and Hannah will proberly get here.
So Hannah will feature ;)
Well!
This was dubbed the "Knee Blog" by Chloe, all those many months ago.
And I don't really talk about it much anymore.
Which is okay.
Because this has been my "creative outlet" for poetry and lyrics that I write.
I should really take Slow Dance off.
But I don't think I want too, because I'm kind of proud of it, I guess.
Errrm.?
So.
I had Knee Surgery last friday.
I was so scared.
Shaking in my boots.
Literally!
Well not boots, I was wearing my hightops.
But You get the picture.Well, It was scary, I was admitted at 7am and was prepared at 7.15am then had to wait until 1pm to be taken in for the operation. So, I was shaking and incredibly nervous for those 6 hours in a bed in a ward. I was the last operation that my surgeon was doing for the day. He goes from Oldest to youngest, Left to right. Yeah, I was taken in at about 1pm and the anathiesiest put me to 'sleep'.
I had like 3 needles and then they put a mask filling with 'gas' for the anastetic to work. and then i was asleep.
Yeah, and i woke up in the recovery room, and i was in alot more pain then i was ment to be in and i had low blood pressure. so they pumped a few different things into my drip. and then was 'better'. When i was allowed to go home. I got up and fainted, so i was sent back into the recovery ward. i fainted because i still had 'dangerously' low blood pressure, so when i was 'better' i was allowed to go at 6pm.Yeah, im better now.learning how to walk again.. should be good for school.
Oh Hannahs here now.
Yay.
She's like my own personal spell check :)
Mhmm. Knee is still sore.
Stiches are becoming really itchy.
Eww, my knee looks so gross.
I've got myself, well half a job.
I'm babysitting all my baby cousins.
It's grouse.
And I love them allready, so it's easier than babysitting randoms, for sure.
Yeee!
And I spent all of my mula, recently.
Had a bit of a shop at Billy Hyde.
- Wow, those stores are amazing!
Among other things, I brought a new music stand, reeds, all that clarientty stuff and books.
Oh and exciting for me anywho..
Got prices on Tenor Saxaphones.. :)
Maybe one for my birthday, doubt it tho..
Uhmm.
Tomorrow, well practically today ME and HANNAH jet off to cairns.
weeeee.
It's quite exciting.
Even if Hannah was there 4 days ago.
Haha.
Life's gunna be great.
I'm pretty excited.
She gets to meet the neighbours.
Who are pretty much my family.
Take the boat out for a bit of a snorkel in the Great Barrier Reef...
Yeah the usual, wakeboard - even tho I can't, I'm teaching Hannah..
and much more.
Thats enough for now I'm sure.
I'm sure I'll write something interesting soon perhaps?
How are you all in Blogland?
Well, I guess I'm kidding myself.
You won't actually answer.
Even tho, I find myself talking to my computer sometimes...
But that's another story.
I feel pretty bad.
I havn't actually posted anything worth reading for so long..
So here it is.
It's going to take me ages to type and Hannah will proberly get here.
So Hannah will feature ;)
Well!
This was dubbed the "Knee Blog" by Chloe, all those many months ago.
And I don't really talk about it much anymore.
Which is okay.
Because this has been my "creative outlet" for poetry and lyrics that I write.
I should really take Slow Dance off.
But I don't think I want too, because I'm kind of proud of it, I guess.
Errrm.?
So.
I had Knee Surgery last friday.
I was so scared.
Shaking in my boots.
Literally!
Well not boots, I was wearing my hightops.
But You get the picture.Well, It was scary, I was admitted at 7am and was prepared at 7.15am then had to wait until 1pm to be taken in for the operation. So, I was shaking and incredibly nervous for those 6 hours in a bed in a ward. I was the last operation that my surgeon was doing for the day. He goes from Oldest to youngest, Left to right. Yeah, I was taken in at about 1pm and the anathiesiest put me to 'sleep'.
I had like 3 needles and then they put a mask filling with 'gas' for the anastetic to work. and then i was asleep.
Yeah, and i woke up in the recovery room, and i was in alot more pain then i was ment to be in and i had low blood pressure. so they pumped a few different things into my drip. and then was 'better'. When i was allowed to go home. I got up and fainted, so i was sent back into the recovery ward. i fainted because i still had 'dangerously' low blood pressure, so when i was 'better' i was allowed to go at 6pm.Yeah, im better now.learning how to walk again.. should be good for school.
Oh Hannahs here now.
Yay.
She's like my own personal spell check :)
Mhmm. Knee is still sore.
Stiches are becoming really itchy.
Eww, my knee looks so gross.
I've got myself, well half a job.
I'm babysitting all my baby cousins.
It's grouse.
And I love them allready, so it's easier than babysitting randoms, for sure.
Yeee!
And I spent all of my mula, recently.
Had a bit of a shop at Billy Hyde.
- Wow, those stores are amazing!
Among other things, I brought a new music stand, reeds, all that clarientty stuff and books.
Oh and exciting for me anywho..
Got prices on Tenor Saxaphones.. :)
Maybe one for my birthday, doubt it tho..
Uhmm.
Tomorrow, well practically today ME and HANNAH jet off to cairns.
weeeee.
It's quite exciting.
Even if Hannah was there 4 days ago.
Haha.
Life's gunna be great.
I'm pretty excited.
She gets to meet the neighbours.
Who are pretty much my family.
Take the boat out for a bit of a snorkel in the Great Barrier Reef...
Yeah the usual, wakeboard - even tho I can't, I'm teaching Hannah..
and much more.
Thats enough for now I'm sure.
I'm sure I'll write something interesting soon perhaps?
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
Poetics by Jade
I don’t know what I did,
For you to say things like that,
Leaving me with tears in my eye’s,
Not knowing how to re-act,
But I must be honest,
I would definitely care,
If we stopped being friends,
If you were no longer there,
The part that gets me the most,
Is that I thought I had a shot,
I thought if I tried my best,
In your heart I could earn my spot,
But that’s not how it went,
It wasn’t like a fairytale,
You said some things that made me feel,
Like my heart had gone stale,
Just the way you worded it,
The way you acted so mad,
Really hurt my feelings,
Made me feel so bad,
You may have an explaination,
It may be meaningful and long,
In the end I just hope it stops me,
From feeling like I’ve done something wrong,
But I do apologize if I’ve hurt you.
Or made you feel uncomfortable in any way,
If this was the case my bub,
All you ever had to do was say,
Because I may still be young,
But i am definitely not a baby,
I don’t want to play games with you,
I can’t wait around for just a maybe,
Please make up your mind,
Put my thoughts to rest,
Because I think your amazing,
& you bring out my best.
For you to say things like that,
Leaving me with tears in my eye’s,
Not knowing how to re-act,
But I must be honest,
I would definitely care,
If we stopped being friends,
If you were no longer there,
The part that gets me the most,
Is that I thought I had a shot,
I thought if I tried my best,
In your heart I could earn my spot,
But that’s not how it went,
It wasn’t like a fairytale,
You said some things that made me feel,
Like my heart had gone stale,
Just the way you worded it,
The way you acted so mad,
Really hurt my feelings,
Made me feel so bad,
You may have an explaination,
It may be meaningful and long,
In the end I just hope it stops me,
From feeling like I’ve done something wrong,
But I do apologize if I’ve hurt you.
Or made you feel uncomfortable in any way,
If this was the case my bub,
All you ever had to do was say,
Because I may still be young,
But i am definitely not a baby,
I don’t want to play games with you,
I can’t wait around for just a maybe,
Please make up your mind,
Put my thoughts to rest,
Because I think your amazing,
& you bring out my best.
Friday, July 3, 2009
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
Questions for you.
So you've been close to a few people in your life, family and good friends, and by now most of them have screwed you over.
Should you still get close to people?
Should you worry about the ones that have screwed you over and the ones that don't want you anymore?
What do you do when the amount of people who aren't worth trusting has outweighed the amount of people who are worth trusting?
What happens when its too hard to look for the positives in life, and looking for the positives in life just becomes a negative?
You can start all over again with your friends and sometimes that works if you think it's worth the risk of pain, but you can't start over with your family, you can't ask for a new one and sometimes no matter how much you want to you can't fix the old one.
So once again do you continue getting close to people or just screw everyone off like everyone has done to you and live life alone?
Thats all I wanna know.
Thanks.xox
Should you still get close to people?
Should you worry about the ones that have screwed you over and the ones that don't want you anymore?
What do you do when the amount of people who aren't worth trusting has outweighed the amount of people who are worth trusting?
What happens when its too hard to look for the positives in life, and looking for the positives in life just becomes a negative?
You can start all over again with your friends and sometimes that works if you think it's worth the risk of pain, but you can't start over with your family, you can't ask for a new one and sometimes no matter how much you want to you can't fix the old one.
So once again do you continue getting close to people or just screw everyone off like everyone has done to you and live life alone?
Thats all I wanna know.
Thanks.xox
Left Knee Patellar stabilisation arthoscopy & lateral release, +/- tibial tubercle transfer
I have surgery on friday.
Only 2 days away. :(
So angry.
Quite upset.
Another term without sport.
Not able to play Volleyball States.
Life is incredibly sucky.
I hate my life
FML
Only 2 days away. :(
So angry.
Quite upset.
Another term without sport.
Not able to play Volleyball States.
Life is incredibly sucky.
I hate my life
FML
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