Wednesday, August 26, 2009

kids need to relise

Accentuate your awkwardness
They say that if you've got it, flaunt it. And I'm sure they just weren't talking about beautiful legs and blonde hair here. It's safe to say I've cornered the market on making awkward actually sort of cool (not cute, though; remember, that's a bad, bad word).

Never regret telling someone how you feel
Keeping feelings inside gives them far too much power over you and your life, and trust me, saying them - or writing them - won't be as bad in reality as the scary scene you've spent countless hours (or, years, as in my case) creating in your head. For example, I ran into Crush Boy a few weeks ago. It was the first time we'd seen each other since my (read: awkward) revelation about my feelings for him. Was I expecting it to be a hideously awkward scene where we're both so obviously trying to avoid each other? Yes. Was that how it turned out to be? Of course not. We both spoke to each other as if nothing had happened or changed between us. I could have wasted another 14 years hiding my feelings, but I don't want to. There's a certain sigh of relief I can now breathe because he knows. And that's good because you know what? Even if no relationship ever comes of it, I'm glad he knows. It was something I feared, and I conquered it. That's something to be proud of, don't you think?

You have far more confidence than you think you do
It's sort of strange, but this blog has given me a newfound sense of confidence. In the past 6 months, I've noticed I hold my head higher, walk (well, more like roll....) with a purpose and am even becoming more outgoing. I've even been known to smile at a cute guy every once in awhile -- something I'd never even dream of doing before. It's as if all this honesty and openness I've cultivated here has blossomed into my real life. What a feeling!

It's their loss
Really, this applies to everything in my life: magazine rejections, guys, jobs. If someone isn't smart enough to see the obvious awesomeness that you possess, they're most definitely not worth it. Not everyone is going to like you (that's just life). That's not your fault, though; it's theirs.

Writing about it helps - a lot
Being a writer, I was already hip to this notion. But writing on a daily basis - usually about something pretty personal - helps you navigate the big, wide world, and helps you learn a heck of a lot about yourself along the journey.

There are just some boys you'll never get over
That one could be good or bad. I haven't decided yet. What do you think?

1 comment:

  1. There are just some boys you'll never get over


    so true.
    but i don't know whether it's good or bad.
    a bit of both i'm thinking.

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